On overcoming writing fears

“To escape fear, you have to go through it, not around.”
– Richie Norton

S’up internet?!
You may have noticed, I’ve been a little absent this past two weeks.
I have reasons, I swear.
On the sixteenth of June, my best friend of twenty-one years married the love of her life.
It was beautiful. It was hilarious. It was emotional. It was exhausting.

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I was a bridesmaid you see, and my boyfriend Ben, he was best man.
Now our friends who were married, they’re possibly the most relaxed people in the world.
They didn’t care about wedding traditions or expectations. They just wanted to be married and have a fun evening with their friends and family.
However, a few expectations needed to be met to appease the parentals, and that meant a Best Man speech!

Ben isn’t a public speaker.
Ben is barely comfortable in his own skin.
He wanted to do it, he didn’t want to let the Bride and Groom down, but his nerves kept getting the better of him.
I decided the best way to support him, was to offer to do a speech of my own.
And so, I wrote something. And read that something aloud, to room of fifty people.

signing wedding

Ben (not photographed above btw, this was the second bridesmaid) was up first.
His nerves were totally getting the better of him, his hands were shaking, his heart was racing, and when he stood up; he killed it.
He was amazing.
He was funny and witty and charming and had the crowd roaring with laughter, and I couldn’t have been more proud of him for over coming his fears.

Then there was me. Short answer, I kind of bombed.
I was so preoccupied with all the other wedding preparations and supporting Ben that I hadn’t even taken a moment to think that I was about read, out loud, something which I had personally written.
That little fact only dawned on me when I realised that I was up next.
I was deathly pale, I had cold sweats, I was shaking like a leaf, and I sort of vomited a little in my mouth – gross, I know, I’m sorry.
I couldn’t make eye contact with anyone, I couldn’t read from my speech because my vision had become so clouded I couldn’t make out the words.
I had to wing it, relying mostly on my horribly fractured memory.
But you know what? I did it.
I stood up, alone, in a room of fifty odd people, and I read my own words, even if I did stumble all over them.
I did it. And I couldn’t be happier, even if it was a disaster.

mirror

I’ve had a crazy busy work schedule since that day. I currently in the middle of a solid 14 day work stint without a day off. This morning was actually my first opportunity for a lie in, and I still woke up at six am -damn you internal clock.
The point is; hey, I’m back. And better yet, I’ve started writing something. Something I fully intend to start posting here within the next few weeks.
If I can bomb while reading aloud to a room of people, I can bomb online while cowering under a blanket on my couch.
I’ve faced my fear and, even though it was bad, it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be.

Peace out
xoxo


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On the 3 Days, 3 Quotes tag // Day Three

S’up internet?!
So I was nominated by both of these lovely ladies: Hollie @hollieblog & Kourtni @kourtnireads.
Thank you so much for the nomination guys:)
Check out their blogs in the links provided if you haven’t already.
I’ve decided to post quotes from my three favourite reads of this year so far.
Here’s the third and final.
Spoooooilers ahead.

A Court of Mist and Fury by Sarah J Maas
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“My mate. Death incarnate. Night triumphant.”

Unlike Queen of Shadows, this book is too danged quotable!
I took forever choosing which one I liked the most, because I’m just so in love with the text as a whole.
But Rhys…
Rhys!
Why don’t you exists?
I went from just finding him somewhat interesting in the last book, to loving him in this.
No one has ever risen to the ranks of ‘book boyfriend-dom’ so quickly.
It’s actually quite impressive.

Although there are a million quotes out there probably better than this, I sort of love how short and punchy this is.
Quick, simple, determined and totally to the point.
No justification needed. No need to explain away how powerful he is or how much she loves him. Just six, beautiful words.
Rhys!


For the final time
I tag
Caitlin and/or Cynthia @shelfiepodcast
Helen @bibliophileinwonderland
Amylee @thebooklagoon

The Rules
1. Thank the person who nominated you.
2. Post a quote for 3 consecutive days (1 quote for each day).
3. Nominate three new bloggers each day.


And that concludes this 3 days, 3 quotes challenge.
I hope I inspired some of you to pick up these books again, or for the first time.
I myself, am currently listening to both Carry On and ACOMAF on audiobook.
Will my obsession with either of these ever end?
Can I have a ‘Jodi Picoult – Off the Page’ situation with either Rhys or Rowan?
That’d be great, thanks (if a little terrifying.)

Peace Out
xoxo


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On The 3 Days, 3 Quotes Tag // Day Two

S’up internet?!
So I was nominated by both of these lovely ladies: Hollie @hollieblog & Kourtni @kourtnireads.
Thank you so much for the nomination guys:)
Check out their blogs in the links provided if you haven’t already.
I’ve decided to post quotes from my three favourite reads of this year so far.
Here’s the second one.

Queen of Shadows by Sarah J Maas
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He shifted his arm so he could brush her hair back. His fingers lingered along her jaw. “You make me want to live, too, Aelin Galathynius,” he said. “Not exist—but live.” He cupped her cheek, and took a steadying breath—as if he’d thought about every word these past three days, over and over again. “I spent centuries wandering the world, from empires to kingdoms to wastelands, never settling, never stopping—not for one moment. I was always looking toward the horizon, always wondering what waited across the next ocean, over the next mountain. But I think … I think that whole time, all those centuries, I was just looking for you.”

I will go down with this ship so hard!
I don’t understand why more people don’t ship them. It’s the only relationship in the series that hasn’t driven me crazy.
Rowan fangirls, back me up here…
You know, as much as I loved this book, I really struggled to find a quote for this.
This book is pretty un-quotable and that just seems really weird to me.



I tag
Maja @bookishaddict
@bookishdaayla
The Cap’n @thecaptainsquartersblog
If you have already done this (or not) feel free to ignore the tag:)

The Rules
1. Thank the person who nominated you.
2. Post a quote for 3 consecutive days (1 quote for each day).
3. Nominate three new bloggers each day.


Empire of Storms, I need you in my life.
I don’t think I’ve been so pumped for a book in a while.
I may just hibernate until release day.

Peace out
xoxo


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On the 3 Days, 3 Quotes tag // Day one

S’up internet?!
So I was nominated by both of these lovely ladies: Hollie @hollieblog & Kourtni @kourtnireads.
Thank you so much for the nomination guys 🙂
Check out their blogs in the links provided if you haven’t already.
I’ve decided to post quotes from my three favourite reads of this year so far.
Here’s the first one.

Carry On by Rainbow Rowell
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I let myself slip away… Just to stay sane. Just to get through it. And when I felt myself slipping too far, I held on to the one thing I’m always sure of – Blue eyes. Bronze curls. The fact that Simon Snow is the most powerful magician alive. That nothing can hurt him, not even me. That Simon Snow is alive. And I’m hopelessly in love with him.

Carry On was the first book I read this year, and after reading this particular line, it was all over. I was totally addicted, and am still to this day.
I was stuck choosing between two quotes from this book.
So I’m going to be a little naughty; I’m going to post the second quote too. Only because I can’t talk about Carry On and not mentioning this line.

For a moment — not even a moment, a split second — I imagine him saying, ‘The truth is, I’m desperately attracted to you.’ And then I imagine myself spitting in his face. And then I imagine licking it off his cheek and kissing him. (Because I’m disturbed. Ask Anyone.)

Baz may just be my Spirit Animal.


I tag
Ara @The Bookish Agenda
Casey @adoptabookaus
Morgan @Happily Ever Bookish
If you have already done this (or not) feel free to ignore the tag 🙂

The Rules
1. Thank the person who nominated you.
2. Post a quote for 3 consecutive days (1 quote for each day).
3. Nominate three new bloggers each day.


Is anyone else as addicted to this book as I am?
This thing took over my entire life.
I’m getting a tattoo. For real.

Peace out
xoxo


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On my issue with monthly TBRs

“I have come to accept the feeling of not knowing where I am going. And I have trained myself to love it.”
– C. JoyBell C.

S’up internet?!
I’ve been experiencing a bit of a dilemma this week.
After posting my monthly wrap up, I set about drafting a post about my TBR for the month of June, and you know something? I just can’t do it.

I mentioned in an earlier post about reading challenges, how I can’t force myself to meet some of the requirements to complete the list – I’m talking about you political manifesto!
As I sat looking at my books, planning what I would read two-three weeks from now, I realised how stubborn I am when it comes to being told what to do.
Yes, even if I’m telling myself to do something, I’m reluctant to do it.
I’m sure there’s some sort of psychological problem buried there…

When I read, I like the journey that comes with it. I like not knowing what’s going to happen next, and if I plan out my reading expedition for the month, the adventure sort of loses it’s sparkle.
Who can say what I’ll be in the mood for next week. Right now I’m thinking Passenger by Alexandra Bracken, but come tomorrow, I may want to try Percy Jackson or Miss Peregrine or Shatter Me.
The possibilities are endless and that’s what excites me about reading.
That’s the magic of adventure.

This week I’ll finish off The Falconer by Elizabeth May and The Final Empire by Brandon Sanderson.
Next week; who knows.
What are your reading plans for the month?
Or, are you like me and have no plan?

Peace out
xoxo


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On May Wrap Ups and Book Hangovers.

“To the people who look at the stars and wish, Rhys.”
Rhys clinked his glass against mine. “To the stars who listen— and the dreams that are answered.”
– Sarah J Maas, A Court of Mist and Fury

S’up internet?!
Can you believe we’re at the end of May already?!
Time really does fly when you’re having fun I guess.
And this month has been pretty hectic, for sure.

Through Birthdays, bridesmaids obligations, setting up new tech and working two jobs, I’ve had the smallest amount of reading time this month.
I did, however – thankfully – manage to get through four books this month, two of which were biggies so I’m pretty happy with that.
All in all I’ve had a pretty great reading month.
I loved most of what I’ve read, and liked the other so, no real complaints here.

Mildly spoilerific May in review

Hush, Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick
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I had a somewhat love/hate relationship with Hush, Hush, and Becca Fitzpatrick style in general. I liked the premise of the book; fallen angels, high school angst, forbidden love.
What I had a problem with was the execution.
Nora Grey has to be thee second worst female protagonist ever –  the first will always, and forever belong to Anna Steel! (Was that even her name? I don’t much care.)
I can’t even pinpoint what annoyed me so much about Nora, I think, maybe because she was bland and stereotypical; maybe because she was extremely flippant.
“I think this boys trying to kill me! He’s such an arrogant ass! Oh but, he’s kind of cute… I hate him! But I’ll spend all my time with him anyway.”
I just… I can’t put up with this nonsense, I’m in my twenties! Have mercy.
On the other hand, I sort of loved the character Patch. He was cocky and brazen and absolutely the type of character I love reading about. What can I say, I love a bad boy.
The story itself was filled with ridiculous plot holes and horribly unrealistic characters, I mean I know this is a story about fallen angels and all, but your human characters still have to react like a human being, not a robot. Nora’s best ‘friend’ was a raging biatch, who was not only shallow and somewhat self centred, but never had her friends back ethier; sisters before misters Vee, come on. And don’t even get me started on the police!
I know I’m ragging on this a lot, but in the end, I actually quite liked this book. The story was at least mildly entertaining and I loved Patch enough to want to read the next one.
I rated this one 2.5 stars. Not the worst thing I’ve read, but I’m sure glad I loaned this out from the Library instead of buying.

Days of Blood and Starlight by Laini Taylor
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Now this is how you write a story about Angles.
Laini Taylor has to have thee most beautiful and haunting writing style I’ve ever had the pleasure of devouring.
I won’t say too much as this is the second in the trilogy, and a prime example of how a series doesn’t have to suffer from second book slump syndrome.
Alluringly macabre, this story had me hooked from beginning to end, I loved, I laughed, I cried, I gasped, I broke my heart.
The characters were fantastic and I found myself even loving moments with characters I hated, because the villains were so well put together. And the world building; even better!
Badass warrior angels; loving and compassionate beast like Chimera; girls with naturally blue hair; a tortured romance like no other… I gave this a solid 4.5 stars. I seriously loved this book, the only downfall for me was a few angst moments with Karou, but under the circumstances, I’m sure she can be forgiven.

Queen of Shadows by Sarah J Maas
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This series!
I can’t get over how far this series has come since Throne of Glass.
The story progression was incredible in this one and I loved every moment of it. The characters were incredible and I couldn’t get enough reading more about the newer characters that were introduced in Heir of Fire.
I loved the interactions with Aelin and her cousin Aedion, I loved Manon’s development with the thirteen, I loved the inclusion of Arobynn, I loved Lysandra and I love love loved Rowan’s parts in this!
I know a lot of people who don’t agree with the whole Rowan situation, but I can honestly say this is the first time I haven’t been pissed off with a romantic subplot in this series.
All aboard Team Rowan, I’m captaining this ship.
5 stars, September can’t come quick enough for me, I didn’t have a bad thing to say about this one.

A Court of Mist and Fury
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Why do you do this to me Sarah?
I have fallen into the biggest book hangover after finishing this on Friday.
Carry On was my favourite read so far this year, and this has just surpassed it, by a long shot.
For me, this series is Tolkien on crack. The perfect blend of high fantasy, action/suspense and romance. It’s like Maas peered into my soul and gave me the perfect book.
In fact, this story was so good, I handed it over to a friend earlier to read a passage, a friend who does NOT read, and she wouldn’t put it down.
The world is perfect, every character was incredible – and I can assure you, it’s not very often I speak so highly about a female character – the action was awesome, the romance was steamy as frick, and the character development was just, so beautiful.
I’m currently in a toss up deciding between Rhys and Rowan from ToG to be my book boyfriend. Apparently I have a type; cocky, badass fae warriors of noble birth!
The Night Court may have become my new favourite fictional place, and the characters within were so fun to read about.
I was heartbroken by the time I finished this, because I know I won’t last a year for more.
Send help.
Fangirl down.
I’ve actually done a bad thing. I started listening to the Audiobook earlier today.
I have so many books and I can’t get this one out of my system.
It’s like ACOMAF is a drug and I’m totally and completely addicted.
A perfect 10 out of 5 stars!
Please Sarah, have pity and stop running my life with your perfect books.
I have adulty responsibilities, my house won’t clean itself!

Have you read any of these?
Are you currently on an ACOMAF high?
Did you hate Nora Grey as much as I did? I doubt it!
Let me know. Let me unleash my fangirling over Rhys and Rowan.

Peace out
xoxo

P.S I also set up my instagram earlier if you would be so lovely to check out. I have a whole 1 post so far. A post that’s already featured here.
Twice.
I suck at photography.